カガミIn our society, it is not customary to love the place in which you live, and for me, this is very strange. Living in a place you don't love is like marrying a person you don't love. Bragging about not loving something or someone you choose to stay with is weird.
When I arrived in Lithuania after full-scale russian invasion of Ukraine, it was a discovery for me that it turns out that you can live in a country in which you wake up every day and think how cool it is to wake up here. That you can walk along the streets and think, “Damn, I love this city so much”. There is a desire to help everyone and everyone. Then you might wake up thinking, "Hurray, today I can finally communicate with people more!" and not "Damn, I have to go to work again..." And when something doesn’t work out for you, you think, “Well, that’s okay, I can fix it.” and not "My life is a failure, I want to kms."
And, of course, any country, like any person, has its shortcomings. However, when you love someone, these shortcomings seem to not exist for you, any obstacles don't make you think, "damn, why am I here?" When you love a person, you love even their flaws - and when you love the country in which you live, it seems to yourself that all the people in this country are good, every single one of them. :) You just casually note to yourself that something could be improved, and that's it, and you don't have thoughts "This is the end of the world..." XD
If in Ukraine, people looked mostly "in a Fight mode," then in Lithuania, people often look like they believe no one needs them. I often have an irrational urge to hug them, to tell them that everything will be fine, you did great, you deserve everything best, to say something nice - even if we are strangers, even considering that I am quite far from a good level of communication skills. 😅
It’s now a mystery to me how I used to live differently. Even though I loved Ukraine, too. I've just realised it too late. I don't like to remember my love for her. Losing the home you love is like losing the person you love. I'm so sorry that I didn't love you enough when I had a chance.
2024-06-14 05:05:16 +0000