phoenthefur!!!! please read !!!!!
i didnt post that art to seek sympathy, at all, dont ask whether im "ok" or not,,,,,
im perfectly fine, and i only drew that today, bc i felt extremely burnt out and i DIDNT DRAW FOR DAYS, AND I SIMPLY JUST WANTED TO EXPRESS MYSELF SOMEHOW, TO FEEL BETTER.
and im feeling a bit happier that i was finally able to draw shaded art on my computer again....
ugh well,,,,
context:
i still have a lot of exams to finish, and i still have 7 tiring school days left UNFORTUNATELY, but i rly need a break, and i wanna draw more on my computer, it fucking sucks that i need to do other school exams even before the main exam on the 20th of january....
i mean, last year, i thought of reducing my sleep time to 6 hours, just to draw on my computer a bit before school, BUT THE PROBLEM WITH THAT, IS THAT ITS NOT HEALTHY AT ALL...!!! :/
oh and no, im not having the urge to please others on social media at all by posting all day, so please dont say "you dont have to be here all the time just to please us!!", thats not the problem, i simply just wanna be free.... :'/
and the worst thing, is that i have add/adhd and, its REALLY F HARD, to be A+ at every single subject, either because of missing out some important details, or not paying attention to what the task has just said in exams, and my motivation, is going really low, especially when im going through stuff.... (btw i never really had bad grades like F's though, its just that i have some B's besides A's, but im still not enough for certain people, even though im trying hard....)
and i also learn way slower bc of it, it takes me hours to finally learn a page.... :')
so yeaaaahhhh life suxx byeee
2024-01-10 18:59:26 +0000