無道I had a collapse this year. A lot of stuff was gone. Among it this Yantra I made years ago with full love and devotion for Maa. Today, I found a scan of it. I'm full of happiness
Years ago I found The Mother for first time. But I wasn't ready when that happened. I was ignorant and controlled by my ego and by the evil of this world. With time I went away from The Mother. Or so I believed. Now I realized She was with me all the time. But I ignored Her. I was blinded. When She warned me about danger I ignored Her, I was blinded by "reason" and "western thought".
Slowly, I began a way back, full of fear, confusion and doubt. In the very end The Mother guided me back to Her. In other forms, but it was Her. And now I realized all the forms She took all these years. If only I paid attention. Sometimes a Mother needs to scold Her children to teach them the right way. That is good
I wanted to be "normal". I wanted to fit in. I abandoned my East. I abandoned my root and let others decide for me instead of valuing my own way. Without noticing it, I became what I despised the most. I lost the light. Then, after all of that, as my eyes became clear and clear, the more I came back to Her. In other forms, according to my current state and needs, but always Her. Always the Primordial Mother
I'm an ignorant. But now I understand a little bit more. I understand errors of the past and so I start to see things that were in front of me all the time. I don't think I'm ready for this Your magnificent form, but You're still here under other forms, teaching me and transforming my being in ways I never imagined they were possible
I praise You, the Supreme Shakti, the Creatrix of reality. I praise You, Holy Black Mother. You, the Destroyer of illusion, the Crusher of evil, the One of the Thousand Names. Love is Your being, for You are Mother. Excuse my ways, Mother, for your son is blind, but thanks to You he is learning to walk. Forgive me, Mother, and thank You for everything. With sincere love, I bow to You, Maata Ji
I love You, Mother
Jai Maa
Now, is time to make a new yantra...
2023-12-04 06:52:57 +0000